Mind control

I'm waiting for a lot of things right now. And coping surprisingly well, considering how much I HATE (D) waiting. But, as part of the 'new and improved Zen-like mindset' I am learning that, actually, waiting's ok. And whilst you're waiting you can fill your time, and mind, with random soul-fulfilling activities. Like blog-writing whilst waiting for delicious smelling soup... (Despite the fact that I stuffed my face, in a shed, at lunchtime with prawns (one of whom, revoltingly, was pregnant. Ewww!) and fishcakes and then tea and scone- singular). And practising thinking about a) nothing at all or b) thinking about things in a new and positive way. (Yes, Sasha, that lady is doing your head in with her ranting and negativity and overuse of the word 'tart' but, actually she's a very lovely person and is just venting her emotions- rather ineloquently- with regards to George (very lovely horse) after he was starved very nearly to death). I have developed MPD within my own head. But I like it. Also, walking round a field picking up horse shit. Who'd have thought....? This is an activity I have pursued many times in my life (not for fun, you see, but necessity), always with an 'Ugh, I can't be arsed, the wheelbarrow weighs a ton, it's cold, it's disgusting... If you switch off the voice in your head, this becomes a lovely experience, filled with the sounds of birds, the wind, gunshots. Ok, they're not lovely, but you know what I mean. Even the gunshots, actually.... It was like punctuation every now and then. And it was freaking Rio out (stuck-up, lady-who-luches-type horse) which made me laugh. I actually felt like I could hear her "Agh! What the devil was that frightful noise...?" I think I could on some level...
So, whilst waiting to hear from Dubai, waiting to get the van to drive to Asia, waiting for the Universe to show me it's time to jet off to South America... I'm learning to love every single moment, every single day. Like seeing tiger stripes where, in actuality, there are horrible big scratches down the side of Pete's car that he so kindly lent me (oops). And loving Ginger (the little cunt) even though he dumped me in a puddle and then catapulted me through the air whilst standing laughing at me (as much as a horse can laugh....) loving my work and the people I work with... even the 'but dear, you work in a restaurant, you should know which white wine is drier...' Well, I don't, so why don't you taste them all and let me know... made one 'delightful' customer's day. Between patience, understanding and a little bit of positivity, we could all make this world a much better place. Don't send out negative thoughts, there's already a ridiculous abundance  of them. Whenever you catch yourself feeling pissed off, frustrated, impatient, overwhelmed by piles and piles of horse shit..... Just smile, switch off the voice in your head and think...... nothing. Life is what it is, all you can do is change your response to it....
Peace and Love.